What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?

Yeah, it's been a week.  I think I'm going to mail it tomorrow, so I'm going to be uuuuuber un-original and just post lyrics for awhile.  Not sure that anyone is reading this, anyhow.  I DID type the title of this blog into the yahoo search engine.  I didn't find myself, but I did find lots of theories about Lennon being right about the non-existence of Heaven.  Didn't want to read on.  Don't like to think things like that.  That gives me no hope...  I'm not sure what start to start with... maybe I'll just run down the track list on CD 1.  Hmm...

This is the first day of my life
Swear I was born right in the doorway
I went out in the rain, suddenly everything changed
They're spreading blankets on the beach

Yours was the first face that I saw
I think I was blind before I met you
I don't know where I am, I don't know where I've been
But I know where I want to go

So I thought I'd let you know
That these things take forever, I especially am slow
But I realized how I need you
And I wondered if I could come home

I remember the time you drove all night
Just to meet me in the morning
And I thought it was strange, you said everything changed
You felt as if you just woke up

And you said
"This is the first day of my life
Glad I didn't die before I met you
Now I don't care, I could go anywhere with you
And I'd probably be happy"

So if you want to be with me
With these things there's no telling
We'll just have to wait and see
But I'd rather be working for a paycheck
Than waiting to win the lottery

Besides, maybe this time is different
I mean, I really think you like me


But, the brilliance of the song is also in the delivery.  With the acoustic guitar paired with a sweet, shy voice... it's just so sad sometimes... so lovely... quite the choice for the first track.  So, if he were to listen, this would be the initial thing he would hear.  The first song explains it all... he changed my life.  We underwent many trials and tribulations that inevitably ended our time together. My outlook has changed and it's nothing but a warm memory so I can only be nostalgic.  And, as far as the paycheck reference... I'm not really doing that at all... I should be taking initiative instead of waiting around for something that won't happen.  So, I'm just waiting to win the lottery... I should be working on getting him back... oh well.  But, what a lottery that would be to win!!! = /